Fertile Weekend

So according to Fertility Friend, I will be fertile this weekend. Yay, right? Except that if I don't get pregnant, then I will worry that I'm not fertile at all. I can't help it. I know it sounds dumb, it takes most people anywhere from 4-12 months of TTC to get it right. And by all accounts this is my first normal cycle after starting the Metformin. So I guess we will see in about 20 days, which seems like an eternity to wait. I have a new respect for my friends who have struggled with infertility, and a realization that I don't understand half of what they went through, and are still going through. I hope my cycles stay even and I can conceive a healthy baby as soon as possible. Ryan will be 30 in a couple of days. I don't want to wait till he's too old to enjoy being a parent! Though I'm not sure he will enjoy it at all anyways. He's being so nonchalant about the whole process, and acting like I'm stupid for charting and worrying. Um, hello? Did you not hear about the disease that causes infertility that I have? Contrary to popular belief, getting pregnant isn't all that easy. I mean, if you're gettin it on without protection every day of the year, then yeah, sure, your chances of getting pregnant are higher. I'm frustrated. I guess I will be holding my breath for the next 20 days...